Be Careful What You Wish For

 I'll try to make a long story short, lol! Our babysitter of the last 6 years has sold her home and was moving to a new place on an old dead end dirt road. It's out of the way now for me on my way to work and would probably take and extra 15 minutes in the morning to drop Hannah there. I have been dreading this move because of that extra time and also the fact that the road in the winter time would be atrocious. The wind here in the winter time creates havoc on the roads with blowing and drifting snow and I was really dreading the drive.

Anyway, I stopped at the sitters the other day and she informed me that she would no longer be able to care for Hannah because someone had reported her for having more than the alloted 5 children per adult. Alot of the children she cared for were only there an hour or so in the morning then caught the bus. Alot of the kids were only there part-time as Hannah was, 2 days a week. She had a strict routine, the kids loved it there and they all grew up attending the same school and therefore already had lots of friends their first day in kindergarten. She fed them breakfast and lunch all for a very nominal fee. I dropped Hannah and her brother Colton off there when he used to go, knowing that they were safe and sound and loved and cared for.

I suppose now I won't have to worry about the long drive down the road, especially in the winter, but whatever will I do now for a caregiver for my precious child?? Sharon is the only sitter she has known and how could I ever begin to replace all that we had there? My sense of peace knowing that at least if I wasn't able to be home to care for my child that I knew she was being well cared for there. Her sense of belonging there with all the kids she has grown up with for the past 3 years. I am terribly depressed just thinking about the whole process of finding a new caregiver and more than that I think I'm scared that the one I find won't be able to measure up